A Milestone is defined as a significant event or state in life, progress, development, or the like of a person, nation, etc…This year marks a milestone in my life. On September 1, 2011 I turn 45 years old. WOW!! I can remember as a child thinking FORTY was SO OLD! Haha…well here I am half way through my forties and I have come to the realization that forty-five isn’t old, it is just the beginning. I love being in my forties.
I am sure may of us, myself included, spent our teen years wishing away some very important times in our life. For instance, high school, there are times I wish I could go back to those days when my only responsibilities were getting up each day, go to school, make good grades, spend time with my friends, and just enjoy being young. Now, I look at the world around me now and I think to myself; “I would never survive”! Do not get me wrong, I loved my teen years but it was a different time and so many things are differenty now. Then along comes the twenties! My twenties seemed to fly by. It seems I spent most of my life making mistakes as well as trying to fix them. Don’t get me wrong, I have no regrets in my life because to have regrets you are wishing away your mistakes. Many of my mistakes have given me some of the most important people in my life. I believe we are each dealt a hand of cards, how you play those cards is how your life is going to turn out. I realized I had to learn from my mistakes and attempt the task of not making the same ones over and over. Do I wish certain things in my life would have turned out differently? Sure I do, don’t we all? But life has no "do-overs" like in child-hood games. Here comes the thirites! WOW! My thirties were awesome. I truly believe this is the stage in life where a woman becomes comfortable with who she is and what she has become. This is the stage in which I began to love me. You have heard people say, “I am comfortable in my own skin”, well this was accomplished in my thirties. Who I am, where I was going, who I wanted to become…etc…. In other words, I spent my thirties making repairs not only to myself, but to people around me. I realized who I needed in my life and the people that brought me down by negative energy or lifestyle were quickly weeded from who I have now become.
So, here I am, forty-five and it seems as though I have spent the last five years finding a level of peace within myself. First, I have accomplished what I thought was the impossible. I found that I am a smart and intelligent woman. I finally graduated from college and now I am working on my Master's degree. I know this is something that should have completed in my twenties but like I said, no regrets. It is done and I have moved on. I have grown to love who I am both physically and spiritually. I know my body isn’t perfect but you know something, not everyone can be a drop dead diva. Instead, I am beautiful in my own right. I can look in the mirror each morning and I actually like what I see. Sure, I would love to make changes but those changes have to be mine to make not anyone else’s. Spiritually, I am happy; truly happy within my soul. I am comfortable with My God and where I will be once my earthly body has ceased to exist.
What do I wish for? I wish for a lot of things…like winning the lottery! Hahaha Seriously, I wish for happiness. I wish for love, I wish for peace just like anyone else. I can only wish to be half the woman my mother is because in my eyes she is amazing and everything good in life. I wish to always make my mom and dad proud, Lord knows I have provided them with less than perfect behavior in my past. I wish to always make my family proud of me and who I am because they deserve no less. I wish for my family to always be happy. I wish for all of our soldiers to come home safe and be where they belong with their families. I wish to live my life as a great role model so my grandchildren can grow up, be proud of me, and have happy lives. Basically, I just wish for life to be simple.
What do I want at this point in my life? I want my family to always love one another, warts and all. I want people to know that just because you are not blood related to someone does not mean they cannot be a part of your family unit. Some of the best people in my life I have chosen to place there and would not change it for the world. I would love to have the type of relationship with my daughter that I have with my mother. I know I could never replace her birth mom, but if she would give me half the chance, I could be a really good friend, giver of advice, and all around fun person. I would love for my youngest son to achieve the goals he has set in his life and eventually find a nice girl to be his other half and make him happy. (not too soon but sometime). I want my oldest son to realize that even though I didn’t physically give birth to him, I love him as much as if I did. I want my daughter-in-law to know I think she is an amazing mommy. I can’t wait to see what the next chapter in her life will be with Dustin and Connor. I want my family to know I am thankful each and every day to have them in my life and although I screw up and allow my mouth to over load my ass I am who I am and they should love me regardless. (I know easier said than done right lol) I want my husband to realize just how happy he makes me and how thankful I am for him every day. He is my biggest fan and for that I am truly blessed.
This is who I have become at forty-five: I am a wife, a mother, a friend, a confidant, a teacher, a cheerleader, a grandmother, a daughter, a sister, and so many other things that I work on each day. I am not perfect at either of these, nor will I ever be. All I can do is to continually work on myself and who I am becoming. You have heard the old saying, “Be patient, God isn’t finished with me yet”. Well, be patient, I am a work in progress. I work hard every day and there are days that I fall short of being the best me I can, but at least I work on it and know there is room for improvement.
So, at forty-five years YOUNG here is what I have learned. I am a passionate lover, a wonderful mother, a young grandmother, a wife to an amazing man, a teacher, and out of everything that I am I am a BEAUTIFUL WOMAN!
Written by: Marie Roberts 7/29/11
I am sure may of us, myself included, spent our teen years wishing away some very important times in our life. For instance, high school, there are times I wish I could go back to those days when my only responsibilities were getting up each day, go to school, make good grades, spend time with my friends, and just enjoy being young. Now, I look at the world around me now and I think to myself; “I would never survive”! Do not get me wrong, I loved my teen years but it was a different time and so many things are differenty now. Then along comes the twenties! My twenties seemed to fly by. It seems I spent most of my life making mistakes as well as trying to fix them. Don’t get me wrong, I have no regrets in my life because to have regrets you are wishing away your mistakes. Many of my mistakes have given me some of the most important people in my life. I believe we are each dealt a hand of cards, how you play those cards is how your life is going to turn out. I realized I had to learn from my mistakes and attempt the task of not making the same ones over and over. Do I wish certain things in my life would have turned out differently? Sure I do, don’t we all? But life has no "do-overs" like in child-hood games. Here comes the thirites! WOW! My thirties were awesome. I truly believe this is the stage in life where a woman becomes comfortable with who she is and what she has become. This is the stage in which I began to love me. You have heard people say, “I am comfortable in my own skin”, well this was accomplished in my thirties. Who I am, where I was going, who I wanted to become…etc…. In other words, I spent my thirties making repairs not only to myself, but to people around me. I realized who I needed in my life and the people that brought me down by negative energy or lifestyle were quickly weeded from who I have now become.
So, here I am, forty-five and it seems as though I have spent the last five years finding a level of peace within myself. First, I have accomplished what I thought was the impossible. I found that I am a smart and intelligent woman. I finally graduated from college and now I am working on my Master's degree. I know this is something that should have completed in my twenties but like I said, no regrets. It is done and I have moved on. I have grown to love who I am both physically and spiritually. I know my body isn’t perfect but you know something, not everyone can be a drop dead diva. Instead, I am beautiful in my own right. I can look in the mirror each morning and I actually like what I see. Sure, I would love to make changes but those changes have to be mine to make not anyone else’s. Spiritually, I am happy; truly happy within my soul. I am comfortable with My God and where I will be once my earthly body has ceased to exist.
What do I wish for? I wish for a lot of things…like winning the lottery! Hahaha Seriously, I wish for happiness. I wish for love, I wish for peace just like anyone else. I can only wish to be half the woman my mother is because in my eyes she is amazing and everything good in life. I wish to always make my mom and dad proud, Lord knows I have provided them with less than perfect behavior in my past. I wish to always make my family proud of me and who I am because they deserve no less. I wish for my family to always be happy. I wish for all of our soldiers to come home safe and be where they belong with their families. I wish to live my life as a great role model so my grandchildren can grow up, be proud of me, and have happy lives. Basically, I just wish for life to be simple.
What do I want at this point in my life? I want my family to always love one another, warts and all. I want people to know that just because you are not blood related to someone does not mean they cannot be a part of your family unit. Some of the best people in my life I have chosen to place there and would not change it for the world. I would love to have the type of relationship with my daughter that I have with my mother. I know I could never replace her birth mom, but if she would give me half the chance, I could be a really good friend, giver of advice, and all around fun person. I would love for my youngest son to achieve the goals he has set in his life and eventually find a nice girl to be his other half and make him happy. (not too soon but sometime). I want my oldest son to realize that even though I didn’t physically give birth to him, I love him as much as if I did. I want my daughter-in-law to know I think she is an amazing mommy. I can’t wait to see what the next chapter in her life will be with Dustin and Connor. I want my family to know I am thankful each and every day to have them in my life and although I screw up and allow my mouth to over load my ass I am who I am and they should love me regardless. (I know easier said than done right lol) I want my husband to realize just how happy he makes me and how thankful I am for him every day. He is my biggest fan and for that I am truly blessed.
This is who I have become at forty-five: I am a wife, a mother, a friend, a confidant, a teacher, a cheerleader, a grandmother, a daughter, a sister, and so many other things that I work on each day. I am not perfect at either of these, nor will I ever be. All I can do is to continually work on myself and who I am becoming. You have heard the old saying, “Be patient, God isn’t finished with me yet”. Well, be patient, I am a work in progress. I work hard every day and there are days that I fall short of being the best me I can, but at least I work on it and know there is room for improvement.
So, at forty-five years YOUNG here is what I have learned. I am a passionate lover, a wonderful mother, a young grandmother, a wife to an amazing man, a teacher, and out of everything that I am I am a BEAUTIFUL WOMAN!
Written by: Marie Roberts 7/29/11
loved it! you are great with words. I feel bad now though, I post pictures with very few words on my family blog...i need to work on this..
ReplyDeleteNever feel bad about the words you write. This is my first attempt at a personal blog. All of my others have been for a class or a project. I just write how I feel. Thank you for your comment. I am glad you enjoyed reading it.
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